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[07 Jan 2006|08:20pm]

New Year, New thoughts.

Add my new journal.

 

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[30 Dec 2005|04:04pm]
ADD MY NEW MYSPACE BITCHES
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So, fucking bored. SUP LJ [26 Dec 2005|03:56pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Man, im fucking bored.
Thank goodness the holidays are over, all there is, is New Years .. which is FINE with me.
I'm going to Tweedale's Dads that night. Can't wait.
Uhm, Hippie road trip coming up soon. Who wants to donate?!?!?!??????
So Wensday, im hanging out with some cool kids.
Friday, im going shopping with My Aunt and new cousin, Samanta .. i think thats her name.
New Years, @ Tweedales.

SOOOO you figure it out, the rest of the days i have NOTHING planned.
lets hang out bitches

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[23 Nov 2005|09:13pm]
MY BOO KRISTIN IS COMING HOME <3 AYYAYAYAYAYA
FUCKING, PARTY.
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[18 Nov 2005|07:33pm]
right now, i feel as if im that one piece of hair, that never quite goes where you want it to go.
i feel like that sweater in the back of your closet that you never seem to touch.
i feel as if im the only sane one in a mental instatution.
or maybe i am the mental one, and everyone around me is sane?

why do i make such high expections, such high goals, such, such specatular dreams for myself?
i have a hard time fufilling one, and i just make up another.
maybe i should become a pathelogical liar, and just lie to myself all the time.
i'd be happy then.

why do i feel like im losing friends ...
why don't i care.
why do i want to just say fuck it, fuck everything and start over.

why do i cry over things in the past.

why do i wish i had someone to talk to when, in all reality .. i don't talk about my problems at all.

why do girls insist on talking about one another.
why do they insist about talking about the kindest person you know RIGHT in front of you.

I don't know whats wrong, so please don't ask. I've told everyone this ... MICHIGAN IS EATING MY SOUL.

im like ... one of those birds, that had a broken wing and you took care of, but YOU are a SELFISH bastard and wont FUCKING let me free. YOU WATCH ME IN A FUCKING CAGE 24/7 and give me a FUCKING name like petey.

why everytime i try to talk to someone, my throat closes up and the only sound i make is a gasp?

i don't have a bestfriend. no, take that back. my bestfriend lives FAR away. FAR FAR FUCKING FAR AWAY. YES i FUCKING said it. and dont give me that shit " LMAO SHE LIVES SOOO FAR AWAY " BECAUSE FRANKLY, you are JEALOUS THAT I FUCKING FOUND SOMEONE BETTER THAN YOU THAT I CAN TALK TO REGARDLESS OF THE SITUATION.

the same with someone i love, FUCK YOU, HES MILES AWAY. I DONT FUCKING CARE. FUCK FUCK. GET FUCKING OVER IT.
ITS NOT YOUR FUCKING LIFE

jealousy .. im telling you.

im going to have the biggest smile on my face when 2008 comes,
are you guys going to be happy for me??
or are you going to continue to laugh?
im going to travel, everywhere. and even if none of my goals come true, even if me and maya and greg dont become the bestest of friends... i wont be in michigan
AND I WONT HAVE TO SEE ANY OF YOUR FUCKING FACES AGAIN...

2 ½ more years..
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[13 Nov 2005|01:46pm]
can anyone make hair grow back, really really fast?
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I think yesterday deserves an entry. [06 Nov 2005|11:22am]
[ mood | who knows how i feel right now ]

omg.
yesterday was hillarious.
CAPONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEECollapse )

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what is wrong with me [13 Oct 2005|11:39pm]
What the hell is wrong with me.
I always look at the past, and the future.
I never look around to where i am right now.
Michigan is eating my soul as we speak.
I miss Kristin, dearly.
I miss hanging out with Tweedale Foley and Kdawg.
I miss family scrabble night.
I miss Sara staying at my house the entire weekend and us going to shows.
I miss Brittany and I crazy night adventures at here dads.

I want to move out of Michigan.
I want to live with Maya and Adia and have my pet ferret.
I want to see Greg, and just never let go of him.
I want to go to college and actually get an education.
I want to be with the people i love the most, and get the furthest away from the people that i hate and hurt me.

Augh, everything is just, WANTS and MISSES.
augh
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[07 Aug 2005|08:28pm]
[ mood | happy ]


ATTENTION : ALYSSA, BRITTANY, EMME, JESSICA, TARYN, DANIELLE, and ANYONE ELSE IN THE OLD "CREW"

we need to all hang out, before school starts. no lie. all of us probably have so much to catch up on.
so i say, party in my pool :) heh. or something equally as sweet

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: ) [06 Aug 2005|11:14pm]
[ mood | wonderful! ]

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition.
To fold and divide.

Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard)
To fall and divide (it's not so hard)
So let's not get carried (away with everything)
Away with the process (from here to in-between)
of elimination (the long goodbye)
I don't want to waste your time.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

(Alright)
Tell me that you're alright,
(Hi, everything's great)
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hi, everything's great)
Everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)

Hey, everything's fine [x3]
____________________________________

carefree is the way to fucking be :)
awe man. i love you guys, some of you
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And we start all over again .... [05 Feb 2005|12:52pm]
Friends Only.
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